"Living is easy with eyes closed"

Um...

Sun, 23 Nov 2008 04:08:42 GMT

Funny how bad I am at actually posting daily, eh?
So there was a shooting yesterday at Willowbrook Mall, robbery then shooting. Crazy, right? Well today there was also a stabbing...in Willowbrook Mall...very close to the same location...comforting, no? I might be forced to the new development to do my shopping simply out of fear :|.

I found out that a certain work creeper has a wife...and a gun...and has shot someone...apparently he was being robbed but the fact that he carries a gun is kinda freaky. And the wife thing is creepy too. I kinda suspected but hearing it for sure is just...ew.

I really like this other guy that I work with and at times I really think I stand a chance but then I just don't know. It's too bad though cause we get along really well and I think we're quite compatible. Other then my bitchy (16 year old -.-) friend saying that he's ' too cool' for me...It was funny.

Canadian Tire pisses me off. People are obnoxious and returns are going to be insane now until after the New Year. I want to quit. My newish supervisor has fired three people in the last 2 weeks and it's kind of freaking me out. I feel like I have to suck up to her. The other thing that sucks about it is that we really can't afford to have her fire these people cause it just hurts the rest of us. I get yelled at constantly, it's actually unusual to go a full day at returns and not get yelled at. They actually had to put up signs saying that yelling and disrespecting staff will not be tolerated. It's really disgusting. I'm already resenting most people who do their Christmas decoration shopping there (which I have done forever :|) and really just want the store to shut down. Oh, and here's a stupid one for you, they are going to have a huge boxing day sale AND allow returns on that day!!! Who deos that? It's ridiculous. Oh and hours change as of next week, we start opening at 7, and that lasts till the end of the season. And next weekend is a big 3 day sale for Christmas as well. While I'm telling you LJ folk about this I expect that none of you will come to the Langley store so advertising it here is fine...for me. Sucky for the other stores! :P.

Otherwise I am feeling super lonely these days. I think it's a winter/Christmas/it-gets-dark-early kinda lonely. It's okay though, I cuddle with my friend's cat in front of the fire now again which makes me feel a little better...

ETA: I just noticed that I haven't posted with a happy emoticon in a LOOONG time. I will be sure to do this the next time. :)

Second entry back!! (Even though it should be what? My seventh?)

Mon, 27 Oct 2008 04:25:36 GMT

Apparently I sucked at posting daily.
I am sick and don't really recall ever having anything quite like it. Basically I have an appalling pain in the back of my throat that just doesn't want to go away, a swore neck as a result of my swollen gland (which no one will actually acknowledge are swollen) and on and off chest congestion that feels like I am being sat on. It's not fun but not particularly horrible since I can do things with it...

I am going to court tomorrow to see one of my projects in motion! I'm ridiculously excited for it. I can't really even explain what makes me so excited about it but I really am.

Yeah...I really don't know what happened! I haven't actually been doing too poorly but I still haven't been sticking to the plan. I think I've lost weight though! :S I really do need to get onto and am working on/toward it. Hopefully this week...when I stop being sick....

I was exposed to Deadwood for the first time the other day by Shannon and must say I was pleasantly surprised. I don't know what it was about it that just wasn't drawing me but I did enjoy it and, like all other HBO shows, it seems to really stick in my head. I just keep wanting to watch it and guess what is going to happen. So far I don't have a favourite character but I liked Jane ALOT more then I initially thought I would and Swearengen (I imdb'd it) is probably my idol :P. Kidding! But I really like him. Looking forward to watch more!.

I definitely know that my first awkward triste was not meant to be anything more then that and must say that I believe my hestitation to get rid of it as soon as it started (as the entire introductory situation, i.e at the Mirage, was a mess) to be due to my desire to be liked. It was flattering and I didn't want to let that go but, thanks to help from a certain person, I realized that it was really unnecessary and that I deserve better. It is, however, sucky that more awkward situations are likely to arise in my future as it is not fun to deal with at all and caused me so much stress that I may have got a grey hair.

I got my hair done! I am now a brunette and kind of loving it! I figure I'll like it even more after tomorrow when I get my eyebrows waxed/tinted as when I look in the mirror right now all I see are my hideous eyebrows. It's fun and I love it. :)

I'm back!

Mon, 20 Oct 2008 03:55:48 GMT

So after months and months (year?) of not posting I am making a triumphant return to livejournal! I am going to go back on the plan so that's definitely one of the largest reasons I'm back. I have alot going on now too so it will likely focus on that during the week and maybe I'll post a little more on the weekends.

Here's the updates on my life:

I am absolutely loving my practicum! It's showing me so much about what I want and how to actually go about getting it, plus it's giving me experience. I just love everything about it! Well, I guess not everything. The one thing that's kicking my ass is the early mornings. I have to be up at about 5:45 to be there for 7. I get off at 5 and I get Fridays off which almost makes it worth it! Basically, if I'm in bed at a decent time its not a big deal but its not always easy for me to get to bed at a decent time. Plus it's going to make going back on the plan tough cause I basically get up, go to work, come home, eat dinner and it's about time for bed. So exercise has to be pretty much out of the question during work days. I can, however, eat well and do tummy exercises while I sit! We'll see. :P
I was really stressing initially about the confidentiality stuff, I felt like I couldn't talk at all about it but talking with my supervisor and writing my journals has made it a little easier. I'm having a great time doing it though and hopefully it will progress into a real job! Here's hoping.

I've been at Canadian Tire now for about...4 1/2 months and its going well. I got a raise a little while ago which was really nice and it does make going there a bit better but it really does push me in my education as I never want to work retail! I basically have three positions, cashier, customer service/returns and self checkouts. I rarely cashier anymore and am mostly doing returns of late which is really an awful position cause you are constantly getting yelled at. It definitely alternates between being a good job and an absolutely awful one but my coworkers are pretty awesome! Despite the two middle aged (is late 40's middle aged?) men who creep on me. That's actually not been as bad lately either cause I'm mostly there when they aren't.

I went to Fright Nights on Friday and it was awesome! I definitely recommend going. It was SO scary! I have some awesome pictures that will be coming to facebook of it. They involve scary clowns.

I randomly went to the Mirage on Thursday with Melissa and we were having a really good time just dancing and hanging out and then this guy asked me to dance and we were talkinga bit and then Melissa and I left to get drinks. I think it was sort of an out and it gave us some time to get away from dancing and then we went back and started dancing again and he came back and started dancing with me again. Melissa started dancing with another guy as well and then I got a text saying that our ride was there (that's right, my Mum was there) and then Melissa looked to where her purse had been and it was gone. We both freaked out, I'm pretty sure I didn't even say a word to him, I just left, and then we started looking for the purse. When I was walking around trying to find it he came up to me and asked me what it looked like (apparently either Melissa or I had told him it was a purse) and he started to look for it for us. Next thing we were standing near the door, Melissa almost in tears, and he came up to her and told her had found it! He took us up to the DJ booth and she got her purse and all her money and ID and everything was there! I was a big wussy so Melissa got his number and we left.
The next day we went to Fright Night (Melissa, Adelle and I) and I decided I would text him. I did and then we texted a bit and then he called me! I freaked out and didn't know what to say or do and then we had a somewhat awkward conversation. Basically, since then, I've had a horrible knot in my stomach full of nerves! The next day I worked and then that night he had asked me to go the Mirage again (which kind of make me weary of him cause he seems to go there alot...) which we weren't into so I told him where we were going and to come if he wanted. I didn't hear anything for a long time and then he called me at 2am and we talked for like an hour and a half and got to know each other a bit. There are still a number of things that I'm not really into but I figure it's my first encounter like this and I shouldn't write it off before it's had a chance. I highly doubt anything real will come of it but maybe a friend? He wants to take me to lunch next week and asked me to go with him to a soup kitchen he volunteers at the beginning of next month. I seriously feel like this knot in my stomach is going to kill me though! It hurts so bad and the whole awkward situation thing doesn't really work for me. We will see though!.

Job Search

Fri, 18 Apr 2008 23:29:48 GMT

Back to the job hunt. It's really awful, I don't enjoy it in the slightest. I am trying to get a job at the casino which would be awesome cause it's great pay and sounds like alot of fun. Only thing that sucks about it is the hours, it would probably be through the night, at least at the beginning. It's really stupid though cause most jobs that I'm finding right now have shit hours, the other one that was in the paper is Boston Pizza which doesn't close until 2 am. Overall, not a fun time. Also, snow? WTF?

Practicum date is coming up. I've started searching the entire Redbook (a list of practically all organizations, companies, etc. that I may be able to work with) which is going to take a while, to say the least. It's very stressful too cause I feel like it's planning for the rest of my life which is not fun at all. :(

Also, GOOD LUCK ladybrock

Thu, 03 Apr 2008 05:42:47 GMT

Does anyone know why a (or several) USB ports wouldn't be working? Or, more importantly, how to fix it? I have two USB ports in the front of my computer, neither of which are responding, and two in the back have items plugged in and one of them is working and the other is not. The one working has my ipod in but the other one has my printer and it is also not responding. :(

Wed, 02 Apr 2008 18:33:03 GMT

I'm in a complete and total mental block right now. I have 3 papers to write in a week and have no idea...about any of it!

Also, that emoticon does not say blank to me. It says glowy.

Sun, 24 Feb 2008 20:58:47 GMT

Stolen from ladybrock.

IMDB keyword meme
1. Go to IMDB.com and look up a bunch of your favorite movies.
2. Post three or four official IMDB "Plot Keywords" for each.
3. Guess the movies! No Googling!

(One is a tv movie)

(I've been told it's a bit tough, I'll add a few more!)

1. Father/Daughter Relationship, Concert Corruption, Invitations, rose, mirror, secret door
2. Drunk, Book, Cat , Librarian, Undead
3. Group, Suffering, Melodrama, Alliance, Wizard
4. Stylized, Corruption, Graphic violence ladybrock
5. Stylized, Town, Dismemberment, Pumpkin, Horse
6. Bumper car, Random Sex, Beach, Everlasting love, House restoration,
7. Severed head, Nudity, Axe murder, Forbidden love, Ireland
8. Historical, Undressing Scene, Invasion, Archery, fall through Ice
9. Sex scene, Breasts, Remake, Civil War
10. Wounded, Gasoline, Graphic violence, Botched crime, Shootout, Code Name

Not necessarily my favourite movies but definitely in my top.

New avatars

Tue, 05 Feb 2008 06:54:39 GMT

So in my attempts at finding new ways to procrastinate I managed to clean my room (sorta), get new avatars, find a spot for an old clock and whine to myself about how much I'm craving...anything! Food-wise. I'm SO hungry. Been hungry thoughout this whole thing. I think I may have to be hungry in order to succeed.

School-wise, I'm getting close to graduation. I have to have a meeting with my counsillor to figure out if I'm as close as I think I am...I'm a little worried I'll be told I need a science credit even though when I registered at SFU I was told that I wouldn't need one because I was entering into the school the semester before they changed the requirements...I'm just concerned that my advisor won't know that or maybe that since I'm still there it will still be required? I really don't know but it freaks me out and is making me postpone my meeting with the counsillor.

Exercise is going well. I've mostly been being a geek and dancing in my room. I got two of those Carmen Electra Strip-tease exercise DVD's and they are really good! The first one is kind of strip-tease-y but it's fun! It's like a dance and I'm actually quite surprised that it helps my confidence! The second one is more of an aerobic work-out with this guy who trained Carmen Electra. It's pretty cool. Need more room to do it though.

Well, done procrastinating for now. Better get back to work.

Sat, 12 May 2007 06:54:09 GMT

I made $30 in tips tonight!! That means that between the two of us we made $60! I've never done that well.

Also, I sort of got a possible call back on a job! It's at a golf course as a part time receptionist. It sounds like a pretty sweet job. I'm supposed to call back about setting up an interview. :)

Done!

Sat, 21 Apr 2007 03:09:22 GMT

I wrote my last exam today! It was BRUTAL but I'm going to try and not think about it.

Now I have this strange feeling...I don't know what to do...

Wed, 18 Apr 2007 08:18:06 GMT

Okay, so I've had a tough night. First I went out with a sort of ex-friend and tried to talk about stuff which was super awkward and I unfortunately don't know if it's going to work out but at the same time it was good to get some stuff off my chest. Then I found out that in telling someone something two people got in trouble for something they shouldn't have and so I confronted people about it and got in trouble myself and may have jeopardized a friendship...I just can't stand all the drama and constantly being pulled into the middle of something I have nothing to do with. I just don't get how I always end up screwed over and the people who are actually at fault are happily moving on in their lives...

Wed, 18 Apr 2007 03:47:45 GMT

I found out today that my first day off from school I have to work and in that discovery I learned how much I dislike my work environment. I think I've figured out what I'm going to do. I think that upon the completion of this semester (3 more days!!! WOOT!) and after the weekend (since I work Saturday and Sunday...) I'm going to try and get a job somewhere that will make me...not miserable. Yeah, it'll mean less money and I won't have the same pull but I'll be happy to go to work and if I have to work all summer I might as well enjoy what I'm doing. I'm thinking of applying to Rogers again and possibly a few other movie stores. If that doesn't work out, I guess I could try some other liquor stores. I just find myself more and more angry that I have to go there and be around those people.

Sun, 15 Apr 2007 21:48:55 GMT

I found out on Friday that my manager...hired someone who's under age... -.- Apparently I have to look into the legality of that action and be the one to tell him. Boourns! She's actually good too. Oh well, it's his fault for not investigating himself.

Sun, 15 Apr 2007 04:07:16 GMT

One more week.

Yesterday I managed to train a new girl, who basically had to run the store with an hour of training, and then spent the majority of the rest of my 8 hour shift in the back (which is freezing cold) unloading a 4 skid beer order. Oh and the day before I had spent 8 hours reorganizing and cleaning the back as well as doing another, two skid, order. I was in pain when I woke up, worked in pain, was in pain when I went to sleep and, surprise surprise, still hurt. The rest of my Thursday shift I had to put up with this winy little brat complaining to me about being dumped. She's EXTREMELY immature and couldn't understand why he was so angry she had driven drunk...he treated her like crap but still wants him back. She's such a little brat. I can't stand the girl. Oh, and funniest thing ever, you would expect to hear it in a movie, I told her that I would be swore tomorrow from all the lifting I had done and she said that her heart would be hurting tomorrow............................................................ -.- All the girl wants is pity and I can't handle it! I hope she gets fired, and SOON.

Also, just found out that this new guy that they hired is actually not as nice as he comes off. I'm bitter about it.

Tue, 10 Apr 2007 19:46:42 GMT

One more day and then I have to sit through the worst day ever! Two exams. One at 8:30 AM (which is going to be awful! I have to be up at like 6) and then one at 3:30 PM. Both lasting 3 hours. Both are going to be brutal! My stomach hurts now and I'm finally getting all nervous. I was a wreck last night too.

I just can't wait to be done! After tomorrow I wait (or rather studying for...) 9 days and then...SUMMER!

And then I deal with work. I think Im getting rashes from the stress of school and work.

However, one stressor gone. One useless 'employee' has been fired. Two more to go. I'm doubtful though cause I'm pretty sure one of them is sleeping with the boss!

Easter Sunday!

Sun, 08 Apr 2007 18:42:19 GMT

HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE!!!

Thu, 05 Apr 2007 21:10:32 GMT

Interesting piece of study information I thought I'd share.
Fingerprints are created in utero by fluids passing over the surface of the hands.

Thu, 05 Apr 2007 05:14:57 GMT

Staff meeting today. Things are supposed to change around there and if they do...I'm not sure I want to leave. I think the main thing I want though is for people to be fired if incompetent. I want people who are actually good at the job to be treated as such. I want respect from managment, owners and the pub/kitchen.

Those are the morally good ones. The other thing I want is more money. But, that's just me being greedy cause I want more money even though I'm perfectly well aware that if I go somewhere else I'll be getting less than I'm being paid now.

Am I an awful person?

17 Days!

Wed, 04 Apr 2007 01:55:17 GMT

The partner is still useless but at least we are finished our last project today!

The rest of the week will be entirely devoted to Sociology of Law and Forensics! Weeee Forensics! Sociology of Law isn't too bad, one of the questions that will be on the final is posted for us! It deals with corporate crime and the war on drugs. The other one is going to be really general so I don't really know for sure what to expect but hopefully it'll be so general that I can just rant about one of the more interesting topics.

Wierdest thing, I have three finals. Quantitative Research Methods, Sociology of Law and Forensics and they are all different formats and they are all one format! Quantitative is all multiple choice, Sociology of Law is two essay questions and Forensics is all short answer! How wierd is that?

Not very but it's the little things that amuse you when you've had less than 5 hours of sleep and are studying finals.

Oooh! Best news. I found out that my manager actually really likes me and my assistant manager thinks that when I go to quit, I'll be offered a raise! I thought the guy hated me. I actually don't know what to do about this though cause I'm really not happy there but I can't say for sure that a raise wouldn't make me happier...that's terrible, isn't it? Am I willing to sell out my happiness for a raise?

Tue, 13 Mar 2007 16:16:01 GMT

Apparently, we got an A on that assignment from last week...I guess not eating and running around like a crazy person actually paid off.

It's just unfair that my partner got it too and I felt like he didn't really do much...

Stupid partners! An explanation.

Sun, 11 Mar 2007 07:10:17 GMT

We were partnered up in tutorial and our tutorial was a little late getting paired cause there weren't enough classrooms so we had to have our first tutorial with another tutorial group (how wierd is it that University as large as SFU doesn't have enough classrooms?). So we were paired up a week late and I got stuck with a random cause I don't know anyone in the class.

Our first assignment was to write a research proposal and it was due the same week that our midterm was to be. I sent my partner my part of the assignment on Sunday noonish and expected him to look over my part, edit and add in his part. I figured he would then send it to me and I could edit his part and make it flow. He didn't get his part done until way later that night so I didn't get it until the morning and he hadn't gone over any of my stuff. We did poorly on that paper, to say the least.

After the midterm we began these small weekly assignments that are to be no longer than 3 pages. The assignments are to take our hypotheses from the research proposal and run them through this program and interpret the relationship between variables, then we have a list of four things we do with those relationships in regards to interpretation. Just a note, we have our tutorial on Mondays and our lecture on Tuesdays so we were sort of a week behind cause we don't go over what we learnt in lecture until the next Monday. So Saturday I figured out our results in the computer program and in the evening I emailed my partner the outputs I had found. I figured he'd email me back the next day with a bit of the interpretation done and then I'd be able to do the rest. Nope! The next day I still hadn't heard back so I text messaged him to respond. I didn't hear from him until 2:16 (when I was at work!) and he said, in a text, that he was sick and had just woke up. He was about to check... -.-

Stupidly, I still figured when I got back home he'd have a chunk of it done but nope! I found an email in my inbox that wrote out the components of the essay and him saying things next to the components like 'this is pretty straight forward' ... It was 8ish by now and I texted him to get online and then found out that he didn't even look at the outputs I had sent cause he couldn't open them! He had downloaded the wrong program. It takes about 1 hour to load so I worked by myself for that bit and then we worked until 4 am. I was done my part but he wasn't quite done his so I went to bed. Before that we were a bit confused on one area so we decided we'd finish and then the next day ask if it was correct. If it wasn't correct then we would have taken a late and finished it properly that night. The next day I go to tutorial and guess what? He didn't even show up! I talked to my TA and told him about how useless my partner is. He told me to talk to the Prof. I also asked about our problem and he told me what to do and that if I could fix it in 2 hours (before he left) he wouldn't take the late mark off. I ran to get it done and, stupidly, got my partner to hurry up and get online so I could get him to check stuff with me. He was late doing this cause he was sleeping...of course, because of this, the assignment was also late. I cried nearly 3 times that day.

Lecture the next day, I look around and guess who isn't there? My partner is the right answer. I talk to my Professor and he told me that he and Scott would be talking about it and that my TA would email me back.

Now my partner had missed the instructions for assignment number 2 (in tutorial where our assignment was due) and he had missed the lecture explaining what we would be learning about for assignment number 3.

I got an email from my teacher saying to get started early with my partner and to teach him what I needed to since he missed lecture. Oh and he said that 'bad partners are a fact of life'. I emailed my partner and he said he didn't want to get together cause he figured it out. So we've been working on this assignment back and forth and it seemed that things were going better! Then today happens. I got an email from him saying that he won't be going to tutorial on Monday cause he has a job interview! That means he not only doesn't know the lecture explanation for assignment number 3 but he also won't know the actual technical part of how to do it because he'll be missing tutorial.
HOW UNFAIR IS THAT?!

This is so stupid, I just don't get it.

Oh and two people, one in particular that I am quite fond of, are quitting work this week which is going to suck! I plan on turning down alot of shifts if need be. New manager better get hiring! It's actually the part that I like the most about all this, the fact that he is going to be SO screwed over and has no idea! I just wish I could be there to see his face.

I'm a monster.

On the plus side, Hobbes seems to be a bit better! He's walking more. He has a shirt now cause he's oozing, he's on antibiotics for it.

Mon, 05 Mar 2007 23:36:28 GMT

Oh my goodness. I swear, someone wants me to fail. Who you ask? It's my partner. He did nothing on this project except tell me what's wrong and then when we were going to talk to our TA today and get a late mark on it...he didn't even show up! And no, he didn't text me and let me know and/or thank me or ask me about talking to my TA. I messaged him and he said 'I'm sick, what did our ta say?'...
I have never wanted to hurt someone so badly!

Fri, 23 Feb 2007 01:51:44 GMT

Ok so I have alot I should be doing but I've been procrastinating all day so I figure I should carry through with it and end the night the same way.

Lately I've been seriously looking at cars on craigslist and am getting very excited about it! Hopefully by July I'll have my own car. I figure looking only right now is the best idea cause I'm busy with work but as of April I'm going to start seriously looking.

Those unwanted house guests are still here and still unwanted. I have heard, but am not free to share with my parents, that he has said that he won't move out until he gets all the things he has at home. When I first heard this I immediately thought of laundry (for some reason) which is definitely something I can understand not wanting to be without cause you have to pay and its a pain in the ass to go to a laundramat (don't know how to spell that) or something. I was very surprised, however, to find out that what he meant was things like Satellite TV and ADSL internet connection.........that's right. So, my question was why don't they work more shifts so they'll have enough to buy those things? Because they are lazy? Stupid? Don't want to move out? I say the last one. I think they are far too comfortably here and that he thinks that he should get certain things when he moves out but he doesn't consider the fact that when you move out for the first time you don't get everything you want. It just doesn't happen!

Different issue: arrogance. I really don't like it. Particularly when it's about appearance. Looks fade and people need to realize that they only get you so far.

Oh! And one a happier note: I just watched 'Smallville' and they have basically introduced Green Arrow, Cyclops, Aquaman and the fast guy and they were inviting Clark to join their group (which needs a name, they were thinking something with 'Justice' in it...) and it was absolutely hilarious cause they all leave the barn and walk in their little square with one guy in front and two to his sides and one behind the front guy. You can't help but wonder, do they walk like that everywhere? It's like they are standing to wait for the bus and they walk up in their square and have to stand in it looking all tough but what about when it comes to get onto the bus?....

RANT!

Sat, 17 Feb 2007 20:34:26 GMT

I'm furious right now! A certain girlfriend of my brother has Reading Break. She has decided that she is taking the entire week off work as well...Now, you see, my problem with this is that they need to get money so they can move out. I realize that they have expensive habits (shopping I'd say twice a week for shoes which she has more then I can even count) but that is even more of a reason for her to work so she can afford her expensive habits AND save money for when they move out. I mean, if they plan on moving out what? At 30? Then they'll have had 6/7 years of saving up mad sums of cash which would allow them to continue their ridiculous spending and have enough for some massive house. But no. She's going to stay around the house.......all week! It's going to drive me crazy, I just know it. They use the family room to watch TV and act like this is their house. Oh and when I asked my parents about how they felt about this they asked me 'are you happy with your job?'...NO! Of course not but that has absolutely NOTHING to do with me complaining that she should be working over her break.

A good whiny post to break up all the Lost posts ;).

WOOOOOOOOT!

Thu, 08 Feb 2007 03:51:11 GMT

LOST IS BACK TONIGHT!

It better be good.